i didnt sleep well last night yet again.
waited for someone, but was in vain.
someone's just too busy to entertain me.
i keep tossing and turning on bed.
i couldnt sleep and i wasnt feeling good either.
seriously, last night was a torture.
i was perspiring, despite the aircon.
i was in and out of the toilet.
i really dontknow what's wrong with me.
i closed my eyes for awhile, but woke up at around 6plus.
mum had to go for NDP Observance ceremony, so she gave me an early injection.
then i toss and turn on the bed and went to sleep around 7.30.
woke up at 10.30am, Abah and Mirul went to GIANT to get groceries.
elder brothers asleep.
so i showered, cleaned up the house a bit.
breakfast, medicine and TV all the way.
some people are going for SOHO tonight, to celebrate National Day.
and tomorrow people will be out enjoying fireworks.
Favian didnt text me today. so i didnt text him either.
bet alot of people are gonna be enoying this two days.
hais.
and im stucked home alone with Mirul tomorrow cause Abah's working and Mummy going MALACCA! how unfair.
but what to do.
life's sucks now.
everything turns wrong.
but im willing to sacrifice.
in my mind now, has only one agenda. and one agenda only.
im doing all this for HER. and i wont have any regrets.
i have to do my best in order to get my life and freedom back.
it started off as a journey together with Favian.
but i know he's tired of it now.
im gonna fight alone if i have to.
i know i can and i will.

Qaisara, anything for you.