you know the feeling whereby you got tons of questions in your head or your heart that you wanna ask someone, but you know even if you ask the answer might not be entirely true or you know you wont be convinced and ended up you chose to keep silent about it, and not ask. even though the your mind and heart are haunting you to ask. im feeling that way, it sucks.

oh wells.
today i wokeup at around 8am. i dont know why i suddenly woke up.
rolled and rolled on the bed and hit the showers at around 9.30am.
had my injection and breakfast and pills after that.
watched tv. and my parents nagged at me.
my heart sank, i want things to be settle as simple as possible, but parents just want to make a big hoo-haa about it.
i cried, and ended up getting scolded.
spare me the misery can.
mum kept saying im happy happy about the situation and not being serious.
but she doesnt know that im faking my happy happy , cause i dont want to show that im stressed, depressed or whatever.
and i thought mum understands me.
but shitly, NO.
put that aside.
i locked myself in the room for 10minutes, and came out like nothing happen.
called Section Head and planned to meet.
so 1.45pm, i was out from home and cabbed to College East.
weirdly, i didnt see people i know. hahas.
but i seem to see a lot of guys and i wonder why they're staring at me.
whatever.
then metup with Section Head. talked things out.
for now they give me LOA and let me think through on whether i really want to quit or not.
whatever it is, school is out from my mind for now.
then bye bye to school and bussed home.

home and had a talk with Brother.
everything settle, for now im resting at home. and when im fit and ready, im gonna look for a job. i need to work already.
i had lunch and then tv all the way.
and now im blogging and chatting with Nisah & DayahBBY on fb.
nothing much.
Favian's been to busy to accompany me nowadays, not even sms.
must be busy smsing some other girls. lols.
whatever la.

im hungry, i wanna munch on food.
ok bye!