i know i have to be strong for what's coming ahead.
i know i have to be strong for the future that lies ahead.
but everytime, i tell myself i am strong, i weaken, crumble and lost that strength.
there's no point regretting, no point getting pissed.
but it saddens me that everything comes to this.
i wanted to have a say. but i am left with no choice.
a part of my life was damaged, my family broke down, so tell me, would i still have a heart if i go against what they say now.
im pretending to accept everything, swallowing and controlling my emotions just to let them know that im alright.
ive made them worry too much, no more.
it breaks my heart that alot of things will be changing.
im losing people and things one by one.
but i have to face it.
i did wrong, and this is what i have to go through.
no doubt, life's gonna change now.
but never thought it'll be this drastic.

to YOU, thank you.
for everything. i know this is a big blow to you. deal with it. live with it.
go on life. things will be fine. i will be fine. you will too.
be a better human.

dear ALLAH, please lighten up the hearts and the minds of my family, to accept whatever is happening and please let them stay by me, and support me.
without them, im nothing.
:)