today is a summary or LAZY, LATE, TIRED, TORTURE, SICK, BLACKOUT, VOMIT, HOME!
yes!
today is a very bad day!
blame the tummy.
betol tak betol eqa?!
ive got nothing much to say,.
i enjoyed today doing crazy drills with Eqa.
but im very tired and very sick.
i want ♥ by my side and snuggling with me.
but he's at home now. sleeping like pig. from morning till now, have yet to wakeup.
bloody idiot!
school's opening soon, 5th July.
fast eh. looking forward to school.
at least ive got something to do to kill time. rather i sit home.

things between me and ♥ has been rocky these days.
but alhamdulillah, at times, things can be quite great.
though i cant meet him. cause he's busy.
im slowly trying to understand.
it's never easy i admit.
and i get fucked up easily.
but i thank ♥ for still thinking of this rship.
and i hope he dont take advantage of my trust.
im surrounded by negativity, but im trying oh so hard to be positive.
maybe, once school start, things will get better.
insyallah.
i pity ♥ that he's having tons of problems on his shoulders.
but im pretty stressed up now, that without him, im gonna be BROKE.
totally cleaned off cash availability. which mean going to school with no money.
so shall fast in school and eat at home.
shall pray hard, things for ♥ settle soon, and we'll be back to normal.

my Mummy's a bitch these days.
cause she find faults with me for no reason.
scolding, ordering me around and pushing me.
torture.
she's both physically abusing and mentally abusing.
but since im used to it, i shall just shut my gap.
tomorrow's Monday, the 28th so lil brother will start school.
peace at home like finally.
i want to meet ♥ tomorrow, let's hope he's free.
i miss him effing much.
i still love him, despite all the negative rants about him.

FZFV16, always will be. ♥