picture from TUMBLR.

i took a minute to stare at the wallpaper of my phone.
grabbed my favourite stuff toy given by you.
looked at it and smile, and thought how sweet you were to buy it to keep me company all the time.
but when anger came, i cried. cried so much i fell asleep.
you said you love me and said i was the best.
but never your words matches the way you act.
sometimes i feel we're plainly wasting time, but you always want me to know, that us never equates with time wasted.
one minute you're awfully sweet with me and the next, i feel like im just a wall.
i dont spend every minute of my life with you.
i only quarter of it, and that few hours spent each day, is something i want to be worthwhile. but always it turns out otherwise.
so tell me, what's the matter now.
im sick of scolding, im sick of arguing.
i really wanna know, is what we're having really matters to you or are you just staying for the sake of it.
im tired ♥, really am.

Napha test was well done, but im very disappointed with my 2.4km run and my shuttle run cause i believe i can do better and have been doing way better than i did this year. disappointing much.
without any sleep, i rushed home for a shower, changed and out i went.
yesterday night was BUGIS.
met up with ♥, Boncet, Nana and Sam at Tampines Mrt platform.
board the mrt and off to Bugis.
laughters as always.
the boys went somewhere else while me and Nana roamed around Bugis Street.
it was boring, cause there's nothing to see.
then the boys came back and we had dinner at KFC.
then went separate ways, while me, ♥, Nana, Boncet and Azin went to Sunplaza Garden to slack.
talked, laughed like nobody's business.
and then off home.
81 bus service was over cause it was already 12.20am.
so we cabbed home.
quick shower, a short conversation and off to sleep.

today was school, i woke up realising it was 8.40am.
and so i rushed and got ready for school.
i cried on my way to school, cause me and ♥ just had to argue.
and a Makcik was kind enough to ask me whether im ok and whether im not feeling well and want to take a sit.
but bus was full and single deck, i let the Makcik just sit, and i stand throughout the journey.
i tried so much to control the tears, but i cant.
stupid me.
arrived school and class i went.
sleepy for real.
cause yesterday was a tiring day, and reaching home around 1.10am is not doing me good.
i was half awake during Business Environment lesson, and my reddish eyes doesnt help me at all.
i tried my best to take in the information, cause exam is coming real soon and my lecturer is the setter of the paper, and who happens to be a businessman, and will be expecting difficult questions, cause he teach us more than what the textbook says, cause he said, textbook is a pile of bullshit. as it is so not related to actual business environment.
so after that was Accounting, and i swear i was almost dead.
Quah is irritating as ever.
and i really cant stand her.
i dont understand a question and i asked her, all she answered was, "you think la, think carefully"
and if we hentam any answers and get it wrong, we fail her test we are make to stay for remedial, which to me is a pile of shit!
i swear im hating her, but there's nothing i can do, but just swallow my anger.
Accounting test was bullshit, cause it was rather tough.

school ended, and i walked with Azreena & Atiqah.
was being disturbed my Faizul's friends. i swear i feel like strangling Faizul for telling his friends my name. tak perlu!
Atiqah left to board the mrt, while i accompanied Azreena to buy her game. lols
then we walked off Eastpoint, and she board 38 home while i headed to Roy's place to meet ♥ and Roy.
slacked for a few minutes.
then me and ♥ headed to Banquet, cause i wanted to eat.
Chicken Rice and then bussed to Sam's place.
slacked, and ♥ made me pissed.
and i walked off, and board the bus home.
home, and i fell asleep on the sofa while watching tv.
and so i went into my room, cuddled with my Tigger.
and fell asleep in an instance. super tired huh.
then woke up andit was time to fetch my brother.
fetched, and here i am blogging and Facebook-ing.
Izharul Haqq is coming at 9plus later.
and Izdiyad Rizq will be coming at 8am tomorrow.
another tiring day.

tomorrow is DX5 and i want to go.
but im still pissed with ♥, and i think im not going then.
hais.
i shall end here, cause i think i need a nap./
ok bye