i came to school with a sour face.
and i dont know why i feel so moody.
i suppose its the hot weather, just a few minutes outdoor, and i sweat like i just ran.
so fucked up ya know.
and what's more.
today is as good as no school. so fuck!
i skipped LLA and S&W and came for only OFA onwards.
but guess what, OFA was changed to AFD since most of them requested it due to the OFA teacher on mc.
so AFD it was, then it was BZE, group discussion, and i swear i dont know what the hell i was doing, and writing based on my memory. hahahas.
then it was CMS lecture, knowing that i would only ended up sleeping, i skipped it.
so i only went to school from 12 to 2, so retarded ok!
so went to board 12, and i waited for 20 mins for the freaking bus. the weather was freaking hot, i was sweating like hell. and a Makcik came to me and had a conver.

HER: dik, dik ok tak? (girl, are u ok?)
ME: ye cik, saye ok. kenape cik? (yes, im fine makcik, why?)
HER: muke adik ni macam pucat gitu, tak sihat ker? (you look rather pale, are you not feeling well?)
ME: takde pape cik, saye ok. cuace panas lah (it's ok cik, im ok. the weather's hot lah)
HER: oh . tunggu sape ni? (oh, waiting for who?)
ME: tunggu bus. (waiting for bus)
HER: oh, jage diri baik baik yer (oh, take care ok)

i smiled, and she smiled. and she walked off.
funny experience.
but she talks so soft like GHOST!
and i told ♥ about it, even if thought the makcik might be a ghost.
but broad daylight no ghost la.
maybe MALAIKAT kot?
hmm. i dont know. oh maybe just a very concern elderly.
oh wells whatever.

so yeah, board the bus and alighted at ♥'s area.
met him and we bussed to Griffths.
he went to take his sister's report book.
and then we bussed to Inter, and headed to Boncet's place.
talked, laughed, slacked.
and i went off home.

home, hot tea and here i am blogging and watching tv.
im bored now, and there's nothing else to say.
ok bye!

i want so much to say that im fine and we're doing great with this rship.
but time and time again i get disappointed over everything.
you kept saying you know what you're doing and ask me to wait and see.
but ive received nothing, but heartache.
and here i am crying my hearts out and you're fine out there with your friends.
sometimes i wonder, do i matter in this rship. and does this rship matter to you?
here i am sick for days, and you couldnt care less.
seriously, i just feel like walking out on you.
but i know i cant bare to.
im sick of everything.
i dont need you to do things to turn things around.
i just want us the way we used to be.
i just want you to make me smile.
i just need you by my side.
i dont want to be ignored.
i dont want to cry.
i miss you, dear. i do.
and this time, i feel hopeless cause ive got no one to turn to.
please boy, come back to me. the way you used to be.
stop hurting each other.
it wont do us good.
i miss us. :(