ive been temperamental these days.
bad dreams arent helping at all.
i want so much to trust ♥, but things happening make me worry.
sometimes, i dont know how true are his words.
he always have problems answering my questions whcih made me doubt him.
but nevertheless, i love him. i know i can, must and should trust him.
cause if i dont, who else will.
the same way he trust me , shall be the way i trust him.
maybe i should stop asking him about things.
but sometimes, if i dont ask, he dont tell. and i'll be one stupid girlfriend who knows nothing about his surroundings and what he did.
call me controlling, but i just dont like it when he hides things from me.
make me feel inferior and that i meant nothing to him.
though countless times he apologised and said that he do care and he do love and he dont mean the things he did, sometimes my mind and heart can never be at ease.
but even so, i know today might be a down day, but tomorrow will be an up day.
though weekends have been crashed with arguments, and upsetness.
tomorrow we will meet, and let's hope things will be fine and we will be happy.
maybe hugs and kisses should work? hehes.
i love FAVIAN HARITH GOH♥ always will.

my Sister and her kids didnt come this weekends, sadd.
but it's ok. i spent most of my time sleeping. catching up on all those sleeps ive missed.
reading books, and reading through my schoolbooks.
reading newspaper. eat proper food.
i will be spending more time at home now since ♥ is busy working.
suffer now and enjoy later.
cause once ♥ gets his pay, it will be a joy.
of course, we'll go dating, shopping and whats not.
so let's suffer now without him.
but at least now im at ease cause tomorrow is his Off day.
but sadly i can only meet him after school since my class ends at 4pm. sad or what!
but it's ok, i know he'll wait for me. hehes.

well, i know this post is mostly about ♥.
sorry, cant help myself.
i love him.
(:
well, shall end here now.
excited to meet FAI & YAM tomorrow!
byebye!