all i wanted was you.
ive never asked for more.
i never asked you for money, food, clothes, or anything.
all i asked was you.
you to here with me.
you to love me.
you to care for me.
and you, to change.
how long are you gonna behave this way dear ♥?
you're not getting any younger.
it used to be, "kadang2 i tak dengar kate Mummy, tapi kate u mesti i dengar nyer"
but now, you dont even listen to me.
perhaps i nagged, but it's good for you.
i want you to open up your eyes and be responsible.
you're the eldest, dont you pity your Mummy dear ♥?
i thought you used to say, "Mummy i first priority, then comes you"
now, you throw both of us away.
why is this happening?
dont say you love us, and say sorry to make things better and the next day, you do your shits again. why?
i now understand how your Mummy feels.

sometimes i wish, you would trip and fall. and realise who really love and cares for you.
sometimes i wish, you get knock down by a care, be paralysed and see who will eb the one taking care of you.
ive been sharing with you the changes in Abang. but as day goes by, you're behaving just like abang.
it's not long before you womanize i suppose.
it's not long before you get caught by any police for any wrongdoings i suppose.
it's not long will i see you attend a court session, and see your own Mummy cry about you.

what do you always say, "you takmu doa kan i burok2 la, nanti terjadi seyh"
so what now?
you're not even afraid of my sayings anymore.
im always the JAHAT one.
friends come and go dear ♥, your family wont.
perhaps i might not last with you.
but im still here.
if you dont care a hoot about your Mummy, at least care a lil bit about yourself.

dont say, you care for me, you love me. im everything.
cause you dont mean it.
learn to love yourself and your family first and then you can say you love me.
LOVE is not just a word.
im thankful and i appreaciate that you would do everything for me despite your Mummy scolding you.
i feel bad, so bad.
but enough of that. i dont force you.

today, im disappointed.
just goes to show. you dont want to meet me.
disappointed, really am.
BE THANKFUL AND CHERISH WHAT YOU'VE GOT OR REGRET WHEN YOU LOSE THEM.
remember this eh.
cause the next time, we're ending. it's no more.
cause you never appreaciate what you have.
you take everything for granted.
me especially.
you're all sweets and willing to do anything for me when we've broken up. just so, i believed you already change. and once you've gotten me. you treat me like shit.
AKU BUKAN BARANG PAKAI BUANG.
call me a fool, cause i am one. cause i love you.
im willing and strongly believe, one day you would change.
hope so. really do.

im thankful, at least you've be faithful to me and not cheating behind me.
but dear ♥ i deserve better.
i deserve to be treated better.

and with the problem i am facing or should i say we are facing, i just hope you'll be more understanding and loving.
cause this problem, is so pressurising.

i love you dear Favian♥. always.