you know how frustrating it is, when you promised you'll text, but you didnt.
though im asleep, it pains me when i wake up and see no new messages came from you.
made me worried when your last text is a hanging one. telling me your latest whereabouts, but not telling me when you're home.
it makes me think, did you managed to hit home.
or did something happen.
i know im suppose to TRUST you.
but hey, im afraid, really am. you know and i know.

i dont want to suddenly hear that, "favian masok lokap" again.
it freaks me out seriously.
to anxiously wait for your text or calls.
trying my best to call you or text you but no reply and sometimes you hp is off.
and to know that your last whereabout is outside and not home.
how can i not worry.
how can i not be afraid.

dear boy♥, it's never about me not trusting you.
but it's about how much i care.
i dont want to end up losing you without knowing why i did.
i dont want to end up getting mad at you for things you did which i dislike.
i dont want myself, waiting for you and ended up hearing bad news.
though i might just be paranoid and you would just give me a text that actually you were asleep.
but why didnt you give me a text when you're on your way home.

worried sick i am. seriously.

i miss you♥