i miss US.
i miss everything about us.
i miss all the smallest details about us.
but as we grow older, we tend to be not as happy as we used to.
is this how, my grandparents and parents went through.
i wonder how some people's marriages can last so long.
and maybe i understand how some marriages ended up in a divorce.
simple, look at rship. senang senang je BREAK ah.
im still young, im still naive.
i dont dare think so far as to be married with anyone.
but im just hoping for my current rship to last.

look at us back then, we look so HAPPY. genuinely HAPPY.
we love to take lots of pictures together.
but now, it's just me taking pictures of myself.
it is so seldom for us to take proper pictures together.
it's always you ended up making stupid faces. i get fucked up, and no more picture taking.
you are always the one asking me to be taking pictures with you.
but now, i feel like im forcing you to be taking pictures with me.
sometimes i wonder, how much you mean it when you say you love me.

yes, im feeling down right now.
cause i want everything to be back where it belongs.
genuine smiles, genuine laughs, genuine love too.
sometimes i feel, you force yourself to say you love me.
sometimes i feel, you force yourself to kiss and hug me.
it feels different dear Love. really does.
what have i done wrong this time?
im sick of arguments, i bet you do too.
so avoid it.
why must you dissapoint me of hurt me every single time.
by your words, and your actions.
tell me, if you wanna leave.
i know im a big burden to you.
but i dont think i deserve to be treated this way.
im down right now. really am.

hoping you would change your mind, and say you'll meet me today.
but false hopes.
you didnt.
god knows where you went.
and here i am, trying to be normal. talk and laugh with you.
but you're so eager to hang up the phone.
you dont seem to care.
it's saddening.
really am.
i dont want to say it's over.
im just hoping you wont too.

i love you. i miss you.