again, today didnt end well.
im feeling down, so very down.
i guess i need time alone now. spaces too.
it's irritating, when all starts well but ends bad.
this sucks. big time.
so happy to see ♥, spend the wonderful afternoon together.
but as the day is coming to an end and i had to hit home, we just had to land on a big fight.
i dont think im at fault now.
he said things he shouldnt say.
doesnt he knows that i have feelings.
he make it sound as though im ruling his life.
this sucks.
im sick of this.
asking him to leave me alone was sucessful. he didnt text nor call me.
great, but at the same time disheartened.
no efforts this time.
i guess he's sick of me.
then why bother loving me and not letting go.
this is bullshit.
i promised myself never to end this rship.
so i'll just swallow all this shits. and we'll see what he's up to.
im in no position to be angry.
i expected all this.
and i think i deserve it. karma much?
stupid me. but hell to stupidness, let's just face it. i suck at rship.
whatever.

on the other hand, Mummy wants me to tutor my lil brother and she'll pay me $40 a month.
and i wonder whether her words can be trusted.
she never means it when it comes to money.
so much of letting me earn an extra income.
i rather work my butts off outside, then teaching that kiddo, and ended up Mummy cheat me of the money.
im so used to this.
but i think, i will still be teaching him.
afterall, he's my brother.
and yeah, this gives me chance to torture him till he cries.
yes, i dislike my brother. not because we're of different father, but because he's annoying and ill-mannered.
i wonder whose genes he got, cause my siblings never behave like he did.
irritating kiddo.

i feel like eating chocolates, chips, ice creams and drinking coke. lots of it.
i feel like stuffing myself with junk food and get fat.
then complain im fat and start working out.
i just wanna occupy my time.
i wanna jog these days, but im so weak and people have been saying im skinny what for jog.
so let's get fat shall we?
ive been lazy these months. very lazy.
let's start dancing perhaps, get all these bones and nerves and muscles to work it!
ok bye!