in swear ive forgotten how to dance. ive lost the vibe.
oh please can someone teach me how to dance, bring the joy of dancing back into my blood.
i wanna be the girl who will never stop dancing, the person i used to be.
i wanna shake, glide, steps, move, turns, groove like i used to.
i wanna be able to groove whenever i hear a beat.
i wanna be able to imagine myself dancing to every beat.
i wanna be able to smile, laugh and cry while dancing.
i wanna be able to let my emotions control my moves.
but im feeling as though it's over.
im tired of doing nothing.
im tired of thinking.
im missing teachings.
im missing people teach me steps.
im missing people teach me HOW EXACTLY dance is.
im missing people teach me how to dance completely.
i miss myself.
i miss me fighting the rights of dance.
i miss me fighting for the love of dance.
i miss me fighting to people disbeliefs on me able to dance.
the love i have, slowly fading.
not even the sight of the studio could make me stand up and dance.
not even the people around me could make me dance.
just what is wrong.

at the other hand, talking about dance.
can someone teach me to dance HIPHOP & GIRLS HIPHOP for FREE?
learning always come with a price which means, workshops must pay.
and not a small amount either.
i wish, someday, one day, a kind soul would come up to me and say, "do you wanna learn to dance"
and i will answer "YES"
but everyone knows dreams dont always come true.
why must good dancers either be teachers, or endup being the STUCKUP TYPICAL DANCER.
why arent there kind and good souls who would be willing to teach people without any payment.
why? not everyone can afford the workshops.
me as an example.
i want to sweat. i want. hais. some how i regretted rejecting 30t's offer, but regretting is too late.
whatever.

anyhoos, my lovely nephews didnt come yesterday. BOOHOO!
but alhamdulillah, they came today.
i love spending every single second and minute with them
dear dear Izdiyad is able to walk now. CLAP HANDS!
finally this smart boy can walk.
his 1st bday coming this 02feb. cant wait.
broinlaw's bday coming soon this 26th january too.
might be eating outside. maybe.
dance studio is free tomorrow. i dont know whether i feel like coming. will see.

ive got nothing much to say lately.
i feel so dull.
im boring i know.
i need joy and love.
i need laughters.
i want ice cream, i do.

ok bye.